Feel like I'm moving in slow motion. Like I lack the energy to do what has to be done. I'm stuck in limbo, alone,unable just paralyzed. Stuck in a vegetative state. As the world moves forward I'm stuck in one place. Not moving, if I am on the move at a very very very slow pace. No growth. No progress. Nothing. Just bare and unfruitful in all I do. The question forms in my mind, yet I lack the will power to ask and follow it through. Why is that?
Why are we content with the unfulfillable nothingness of this world? Why is that. Why must our Spirits be starved of the Gospel? Why should we suffer in silence. We get stuck in a false comfort zone, I say we for I too have been enticed by its false sense of safety. What we don't realise is what we're letting go of, what we're distancing ourselves from. When we confine ourselves to these box like prisons of comfort, we're missing out. Our silence is taken as us accepting that we belong to this world and all it possesses. In no way is that true.
I spoke of no growth, of being unfruitful and bare in our faith. We're too blinded to understand or to do anything about it. I had a dream, that seemed so real. I was asleep,all was still around me. Then I could feel something moving beneath my skin of my right arm. Low and behold. When I looked. There was a tiny black worm like thing emerging. Without thinking twice I pulled it out and discarded it.
Spiritually there are somethings that are holding us back, slowing down our growth eating away at us like a worm. Though it was small the damage it does is huge, especially when it targets our faith. We have to remove such things from our lives in order to serve God, in order to move forward in our faith. In order to be fruitful. For too long we have suffered in silence, letting this parasite that is the devil in disguise to eat away at us. For too long we have let him drain us of our strength and will power. For too long we have allowed him to render us useless. Lets not be tricked out of prayer for that is our way of...breaking the silence.
It's time we broke the silence. My bible tells me we are more than conqueror. It's time we claimed what is rightfully ours.
Get on your knees, lift your hands bare your soul and say;
God I love you.
I've sinned. Forgive me.
I'm sorry. I love you.
Please help me Lord.
I need you to come into my life .
And save me. Save me. Save me.
Break the silence with me.
Amen.
